Om! The Direct Experience of the Self (Atman) / GURU VACHAKA KOVAI

The Direct Experience of the Self (Atman)

(Nitya-Aparoksha Tiran)

extract from the book: GURU VACHAKA KOVAI
The Light of Supreme Truth
by Sri Muruganar

881 All the benefit to be obtained by inner enquiry is only the destruction of the deceptive ‘I’-sense [the ego]. It would be too much to say that it is to attain Self, which always shines clear and ever-attained.

Sadhu Om: In Maharshi’s Gospel, Book One, chapter six, page 30, Sri Bhagavan says, “To make room, it is enough that the cramping be removed; room is not brought in from elsewhere.” See also Talks p. 199. If the ego is destroyed, that alone will be sufficient, for it will be equivalent to attaining Self.

892 After understanding theoretically [through sravana and manana] that Self is non-dual, and after staggering again and again in one’s efforts to attain [through nididhyasana] the practical experience of the real Self, when, [finally and with great dejection] all one’s mental efforts subside, the knowledge which then shines in the heart is the nature of that reality.

898 The well-established state in which the quiet mind [the mind devoid of thoughts] has the unbroken experience [of pure consciousness] is samadhi. Such a settled mind, which has the attainment of the unlimited supreme Self, is the essence of Godhood.

Sadhu Om: A wave is a wave so long as it moves; when that same wave settles down without moving, it is the ocean. Similarly, the mind is the mind so long as it moves and is limited; when the mind becomes still and unlimited, it is God or Brahman. The Tamil word ‘Kadavul’ [God] literally means ‘kadandu-ullavar’ [He who exists transcending]; hence our own real state, Self, which transcends all adjuncts such as ‘this’ or ‘that’, is God [Kadavul].

900 Firmly abiding as ‘I am I’, without any movement of the mind, is the attainment of Godhood [Sivatva-siddhi]. [Because] the shining of the truly well-established state of knowledge [Self-knowledge] where nothing exists other than that [knowledge] is pure Siva, is it not?

901 The radiance of consciousness-bliss in the form of one awareness shining equally within and without is the supreme and blissful primal reality whose form is Silence and which is declared by Jnanis to be the final and unobstructable state of true knowledge.

902 Who can and how to think of the whole primal reality, whose finality is Silence, as ‘I am That’, and why to suffer thereby? Attaining the [thought-free] Silence is Self-abidance [nishtha]; it is [attained by] the destruction of [the first thought] ‘I’. When ‘I’ is thus destroyed, where is the room to think?

Sadhu Om: When the reality is in truth nothing but the whole and perfect Silence which exists beyond the range of thought, why should anyone suffer by trying in vain to attain it by thinking ‘I am That’? Meditating ‘I am Brahman’, ‘I am He’ or ‘I am Siva’ is futile and is not at all a proper jnana-sadhana. According to Sri Bhagavan, the only true jnana-sadhana is to lose ‘I’, the ego, through the enquiry ‘Who am I?’

911 Unless one realizes oneself to be the unattached Self, which is like the space that remains not even in the least attached to anything, though it exists inside, outside and pervading everything, one cannot remain undeluded.

Sadhu Om: Without Self-knowledge, no one can live in this world unattached.

915 To root out the weed-like three desires [the desires for women, wealth and fame] even before they sprout out, and to make the mind subside and remain still like an ocean without wind-created waves, is Jnana.

916 When the mind does not wander in the least through any of the senses, which are the cause that throws one into misery, and when the mind remains subsided like a stormy ocean which has completely subsided and become calm, that is Jnana.

917 Just as the sun cannot be seen in a densely clouded sky, so one’s own Self cannot be seen in a mind-sky which is darkened by a dense cloud of thoughts.

918 One who has destroyed the mind is the emperor who rides on the neck of the elephant of supreme Jnana. Know for certain that the turmoil of the mind is the sole cause of the miserable bondage of the cruel and fierce birth [and death].

Sri Muruganar: Since the turmoil of the mind [chitta-chalana] is the root of the miseries of birth, thoughts alone are here said to be bondage. Since one’s own nature [Self] shines forth as soon as thoughts are destroyed, the one whose mind is thus destroyed is glorified in a figurative manner as an emperor riding on the elephant of Jnana.

919 The tranquil clarity devoid of mental turmoil is the samadhi which is essential for Liberation. [Therefore] try earnestly to experience the peaceful consciousness, the clarity of heart, by destroying the deceptive turmoil [of mind].

920 Without Self-realization [atma-darsanam], the ego will not die. Likewise, without the glorious death of the mind [or ego], this miserable dream world-scene will not disappear. Know thus.

Sadhu Om: If all the miseries of life are to come to an end, the mind must die. If the mind is to die, Self realization must be attained. Therefore only Self-realization will remove all miseries.

937 In Jnanis, who have destroyed the ego, the three states [waking, dream and sleep], which were seen previously, will disappear, and the noble state of turiya [the ‘fourth’] will itself shine gloriously in them as turiyatita [the state transcending the ‘fourth’]. 

extract from the book: GURU VACHAKA KOVAI
The Light of Supreme Truth
or
THE COLLECTION
OF GURU’S SAYINGS

by Sri Muruganar

Translated from the Original Tamil
by Sadhu Om and Michael James